please do not believe anything you see on my sister's (rather popular, i must admit) blog. blessed, at
8:12 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Lately I've been thinking I feel like I've been sinking Losing my train of thought Forgetting that life's been bought I asked You why You loved me and still love me today You gently looked in my eyes and then I hear You say
"My child you're so precious You're precious to me I made you with My hands I made you to live and now life I've given you Take and be free I know you've been thinking Leave that to Me" Lately I've been thinking How You came forgiving Such grace You gave so freely You pour Your love all out on me I wondered why You bother I wondered why You care and then I hear You whisper into my ear with care "My child you're so precious You're precious to me I made you with My hands I made you to live and now life I've given you Take and be free I know you've been thinking Leave that to Me"
truly, perhaps i've been thinking too much. and my thinking = worrying.
i BELIEVE that whatever God does, He does it with my best interests in mind. of course, i wwill be estatic if i can get to serve in the children's ministry, but if they don't, i will still praise my Elohim with all my heart. :)
worrying tonight was a mistake. no work done and midyears a week away.
actually i'm not supposed to be online. but i really needed to get this off my chest.
i was looking at other newcreation people's blogs, and i realised this: whether i serve or not, this will not change the way God feels for me. i will still be His beloved. i don't have to prove anything to Him by serving (although i really, really want to serve) BUTBUT if i don't get in, God is tellling me that his focus for me in my life is somewhere else.
i will go wherever You take me, Lord :)
and i shouldn't worry! my life has been charted out for me already! ANDAND it's FULL of wonderfulGOOD plans that i will surely love.
and one more thing: i shouldn't worry about wordly things either. no more. live the trusting life :)
trusting life- needs cultivating!
so! don't worry so much abt your midyears people. just do your best, BUT don't WORRY. by worrying, you're wasting time that coulld be spent on studying more! so why worry? then you'll kick yourself for worrying and scolding ourself that you've wasted time AGAIN.
RATHER, do the work and focus on it; don't worry and NOT do the work. make sense?
i'm preaching to myself, don't feel binded by worry!
the bochap life :)
happy Good Friday to everyone, may all of you precious people be abundantly blessed! remember what Christ did for us at Calvary!
Down the Via Dolorosa called the way of suffering Like a lamb came the Messiah, Christ the King, But He chose to walk that road out of His love for you and me. Down the Via Dolorosa, all the way to Calvary.
good luck to everyone for midyears, God's hand will be writing your essays on Sri Lanka :) blessed, at
10:29 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006
what a wonderful day (: i'm so blessed, so blessed, i feel so blessed! "this is home, truly, where i know i must be..." singing on the boat, looking at the sea, scaring people on marina bay... what an awesome day :)
blessed, at
12:40 AM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
In only a moment truth was seen Revealed this mystery The crown that showed no dignity he wore And the king was placed for all the world to show disgrace But only beauty flowed from this place
Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands
He held the weight of impurity The Father would not see The reasons had finally come to be to show The depth of His grace flowed with every sin erased He knew that this was why he came
Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands
And we just don't know The blood and water flowed And in it all He showed Just how much He cared
And the veil was torn So we could have this open door And all these things have finally been complete
Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands Would you take the place of this man Would you take the nails from his hands, from his hands, from his hands, from his hands... blessed, at
5:29 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
my eyebags grow very big very fast.
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my sister made my day last night when she said she would go to church with me this sunday. i didn't expect to ask her, but we were just talking about her adjusting to life in TKGS when i just suddenly said, "mei, do you want to come to church this weekend?"
and she agreed, and i rejoiced and found it very, very hard to sleep afterwards.
thankyou Lord, my prayers for her have finally crumbled the wall! i know it was You who asked her to come, because i had prayed to You on what to say to her beforehand :)
***
school lately has been weird. it's so strange to have classes without half of your class, so out of my comfort zone. it's not really a class anymore. my teachers are good and i'm grateful, it's conducive and everything, but a little oppressive, a little unfamiliar, i little too serious, and it's like we're growng up too fast now.
we're sixteen this year and i feel so-
not nice la
O Levels are this year. and everyone's starting to mug hard already. chugga chug chug.
*** blessed, at
2:44 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
wow, it's been a while since i last blogged. and i mean, seriously blogged, not some half-hearted entry that informs people i know about what i've done and all that rubbish.
school's starting in what, four days? REJOICE! i can't wait for school to start. without school it feels kinda weird, very out of sync, but YES! school is starting and although i'll be sec4 (ohmigosh, O levels!!! panicpanicpanic) it's awesome to be starting school again. not that the holidays aren't fun. dallas and tokyo and taipei were fun but i was terribly homesick and LITERALLY sick as well. and i get to go out with friends and go shopping and all that and it's GREAT. plus me and my sister usually grow closer over the holidays, especially if we go overrseas. (: but i miss school.
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so ANYWAY, since both janice and gourie have very nicely graced their most preevious entries with my happy name by telling the world how i fell through that stupid box (i still don't understand how it happened, it defies like all the laws of physics and gravity and everything), i shall blog about the day the "incident" happened.
it was a marvelous day (it really was! i messaged gourie telling her all about the wonderfulness of that day and i still have evidence to prove it) and we went to watch Narnia with the rest of the pandey clan. i was shy!! but gourie and her sister and my wonderful long-lost friend/neighbour/tuitionbuddy sheralyn saved the day! oh and a big thankyou to mrs pandey for treating me to the movie :)
why is pooja taller than me???
Narnia was AWESOME i'm so glad gourie brought me along (: but it was very LOTR and harry potter (wasn't movie 4 just great?? :D) anyway, then me gourie's sister gourie and sheralyn sakae-ed and then we went to the isetan private sale (i got my bag! and no matter what gourie says, remember that SHE HELPED ME TO PICK IT OUT. xD)
then the box incident happened, but i'm sure all of you know about that.
sigh. the stupid 3kg i gained over the holidays is so TROUBLESOME
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my sister is coming to TKGS next year. what are the odds of her and me getting the same aggregate with the exact SAME grade for every single subject??
mummy went to buy 4D after that.
and why is her uniform bigger than mine?? blessed, at
11:30 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2005
i'm home :) along with a fever, sore throat and i gained 3kg :( but it's wonderful to be home. blessed, at
9:08 PM
Monday, December 12, 2005
hey y'all!
haha you just gotta love the texan drawl. am having a swell time here in plano, which is in dallas, which is in texas, which is in the US. loads of hot cowboys, cows and churches. but i am veryvery homesick for my maid and my friends.
on tuesday we're going to drive down to houston to visit the relative with the big house that i faintly remember. we stared into her fireplace waiting for somethingmagical to happen and all we got were painful eyes. hee. i must have been, what, eight? then on thursday we're gonna come back to dallas and then leave for tokyo on friday. pockyland, here i come!
and then, i'll come home on the 22nd :) blessed, at
10:07 AM
Monday, November 28, 2005
i'll miss you all. :( see you on the twentythird!
thank God i'll be seeing charleen there:) blessed, at
1:09 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005
HELLO! i haven't left yet, i'm leaving on monday, haha but i have't been online in AGES.
i'm going to watch hercules now. don't bother me. grrr. blessed, at
11:24 AM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
blessed, at
4:12 PM
Friday, November 11, 2005
maybe a greater thing will happen, maybe all will see
God is moving! there'll be 9 of us in church on sunday instead of the usual three, isn't that amazing? i'm so excited, i can hardly contain myself. i really hope they'll accept Christ into their lives. and i'm so happy that God is beginning to touch the people in my household too :)
He's my Savior and everything within me Wants to tell the world it's true He's my Savior the moment that you open up your heart You will know Him, too
faith, can move mountains. i'm still learning, but i'm still growing too. more and more and more and more with each passing day. :) blessed, at
3:04 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
today i made a startling discovery.
cool toilet + germs + janice + gourie + camera = A LOT OF PHOTOS
there's nothing as wonderful as a FRIEND :)
our pretty feet
she's eyeing my food ahaha
the other person
yay :)
i met up with gourie and jan today at cafe cartel where i waited outside in the heat not knowing they were there already, ordering, in the cool aircon. then we hung around a lot in the cool toilet in plaza sing and then walked over to heeren and hung around there a while too
that song is still playing in my head. my comp is working again, it's a miracle, God can and He will! yesterday's sermon is still making me think, it made a deep impact.
i could sing of Your love forever :) blessed, at
8:55 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
the entry before this was a blank one and i don't know why :(
over the mountains and the seas Your river runs with love for me and i will open up my heart and let the Healer set me free i'm happy to be in the truth and i'll daily lift up my hands for i will always sing of when Your love came down! i could sing of Your love forever i could sing of Your love forever i will sing of Your love forever i will sing of Your love forever!
new favourite song but no song can take the place of JLofMS! =) i'm baaack! and hormonal but not anymore i feel like a new woman again because sis just helped me with the earrings =)
mooshi mooshu wurrrrves!
my family tree is coming out well! ahaha, with luck i'll finish the dudes in exodus by this week, handwriting's extra tiny so i can squeeze in all the people, the guys from genesis took up like 3/4 of a DRAWING BLOCK already.
today was ext studies where is my carissa?? i bet she's still in korea, hmmft. i gatecrashed the emath and chem lessons today it was like entering uncharted territory! ahaha, so courageous! :)
after that, i went with jan and we sakae-ed, i was unhealthy today, bad eating habits you know, oily crab + ice cream = fat kat:( anyway, we planned today very interesting my head was hurting afterwards, but ahaha! thinking is good, exercise my brain cells i should plan more things more often good for the brain.
where was my jacq chua today? i bet she slept in!
i was listening to the tape recording sermon thing. it wasn't j prince but some other guy. but anyway, after listening to it, then i started feeling good even though i'm hormonal, what he said really struck me and made me think, esp "the amt you get to know God is in proportion to how much you desire to know him. if you think you already know everything abt God, that's all you'll ever know abt Him in your life."
Jesus is the One who knows everything abt me, no wonder He's my bestfriend :) and God wants us to know Him better than anyone else in the world. that's His greatest desire, for us to want to know Him and be with Him and crave for the Father :) He's done so much for me already, i'm grateful, i really am, i'm so blessed, i stopped being poor the moment i opened the door.
xuan told me something that made me think. we were lounging around the foyer before bio today and i listened to her story. "Imagine that we are a house. and Jesus is knocking on the door. we, as believers, already trust Him and know Him, so we'll open the door and let Him in. but non- believers don't know Him and they don't trust Him so they won't open the door and it's our job as believers to give them a call and tell them that Jesus can be trusted and tell them abt Him so they'll open the door for Him too."
isn't that a nice story?
i want to believe and never stray till i die, i'm never gonna let go.
But when the world has seen the light They will dance with joy Like we're dancing now :) blessed, at
11:54 PM
kathleen ong xinwei
tkgian. 4e9 '06. dance club
new creation church
to glorify His name all my life :)
to get into VJC
and into Oxford unversity
all family and friends to be blessed, always
